February

I cannot believe that it is already February of 2019. Time really does go by so incredibly fast. So what have I been up to lately? Well this week is the 5th week of winter term which I cannot believe as well. I am currently taking five classes and I haven't been struggling to keep up as much compared to when I took the same amount of classes during my freshman year however keeping up with the readings has been hard like any other term but I have been trying.
During winter break, I went to Seattle for the third time this year. I went back in August twice for a day trip which was very hectic though I was happy to go again after 3 years. For this trip, we were able to stay at an actual hotel compared to the last two times where we were only there for a day and had to drive back home after only a few hours of exploring. It was pretty fun. I went to Round One to do some karaoke with my dad and brother and explored the mall there which was HUGE. I love going to malls in different states because there are some differences depending on which state you go to. However, we ended up rushing because my dad got worried about my cats so we weren't able to do much on the second day but it was still fun. To wrap this post up, I am thinking of doing a list of shows/movies I have been in to recently and shows/movies that I am looking forward to on my other blog so keep an eye for that.

Are you Happy?

After 5 months, I am back with a new cover. I am so glad that I finally have some time to record. This time, I have covered Morning Musume'18's Are you Happy? I have been obsessed with this song ever since it came out and it's probably one of my favorite H!P releases of this year. So I got really lazy with the graphic design so I know it's not the best. Lesson learned: always make the graphic design before recording the song rather than making it after. 
 

Thoughts on Yamada Ryosuke's dating scandal/other fan manner things I want to point out

I know this news is quite old now but I wrote it a few months ago so bear with me.
So it has been quite a while since I've last made a post. This summer has been quite hectic. Getting ready to transfer to a new university, dealing with a lot of stress etc. So today, I thought of writing down about my thoughts about Yamada Ryosuke's dating scandal. First of all, he did nothing wrong. He did something a human being would do which is to fall in love with someone. Did I feel sad about it when I first found out about it? Yeah, totally. But was I prepared for it? Sort of. I figured that something like this would occur eventually and I figured I would be sad about it(though I did wish that I knew that it'll come to my stomach and make feel super stressed). I haven't looked up what other people think of this but as sad as I am, it's just something fans are just going to have to accept. I understand that there are people who will feel like they have been betrayed and will want to bash on Yamada or his rumored girlfriend but that's just only going to benefit yourself and not him. This is going to sound super obvious but the best thing to do is just try to be happy for him. If you absolutely cannot be happy for him, then just try to accept it. Also to be honest, if this happened to me when I was 12, I would've just quit right away. But because I am older and have been a fan for a long time, I realized that it's just something has to be accepted.
This is just idols in general but it frustrates me how idols have to be this product made specifically for the fans. It's okay for fans to imagine going on a date with them and such but because they aren't really allowed to date which leads to the fans not being able to see the reality, there are just certain fans that tends to be delusional about it up to the point where they spend hundreds and thousands of dollars just to go to their concerts and try to meet them and basically stalk them. The one thing that I don't think is a good thing for fans is to be able to get close to their idols because there are people that tend to think that they know them and love them back just because they are waving at them and pointing at their uchiwa. When it comes to idol relationships,  one of the most ridiculous cases this year was the E-dawn and Hyuna scandal. Why would you kick your main money maker out just because she is in a relationship? Cube is going to regret this choice for sure.
I just wanted to finish this though it has been a few months since the scandal. A post on tumblr has inspired me to finish this and I want people to understand that he is not a doll where you can dress up and play with. Just because you buy all the products that they put out does not mean that he or any idol belongs to you. I want to point this out, but you do not have to buy things to be a fan. Up until I saw  posts of a certain Japanese fan saying that they buy stuff to support the members incomes, I never thought of buying these goods like that. I buy these CDs and DVDs because I want to. I don't think about the money going to the members. Also I want to point out that not all the money that you spend on concert goods and all that will go towards the members. I don't know who it actually goes to but it obviously goes towards everyone involved so that might include staff, photographers, stylists and make-up artists and those who work for the agency. There is this Japanese fan who is known for being a crazy Yamada fan. At first I thought she was just this girl who wrote about how much she loved him though it was quite excessive. Then recently she posted on her story on her instagram to DM her for those who wanted his previous address. This made me realize that she is just as bad as the Heisei shojo gundan. Then she made a video about how she feels bad about it and is getting treatment for lovesickness but I don't think she learned from this AT ALL. She is still writing the same things on her twitter. It just frustrates me that she is this bad and does not realize that what she is writing is not something that people would think nicely of you. I feel like this has something to do with her parents as well since she said her mom is a janiwota. To be honest, I was quite bad back in elementary school but I was a kid and my parents were quick to point out if I said anything unrealistic. So I feel like this girl didn't have anyone to point these things for her other than people on the internet which I'm sure she just ignores. 
So I'm sorry that this post was all over the place but it really does annoy me that certain people don't see Yamada and basically any idol as human.

Mugen Climax

So I uploaded a cover of Mugen Climax by ℃-ute. Recording this wasn't too hard but editing the video for this was. I could not get the audio to be in sync with the video so I just gave up and this is the final result. 

 

Bling Bling My Love

So I recently uploaded a cover of Bling Bling My Love by Fairies. This really isn't the best especially the chorus which was difficult to record. More covers will be on the way since my computer is finally working although I lost all my things from the past year which I was very pissed about( I still am hoping they could get somewhat revived lol) 

 

Summer break

It's been a few days since summer break started but this week is the official first week of summer break. First of all, it just feels so weird to have to do nothing and just relax. This isn't going to continue for that long since I'm starting summer classes next week but it's nice and weird at the same time. This term has been quite stressful. My classes were a lot harder than I thought. One thing I realized is that I had no clue how to study for them. Luckily I found my strategy at the end of the term but obviously that was too late. On the bright side, I didn't fail any of them! Another thing that has been quite stressful is that my SSD officially broke. It's quite frustrating because I had everything on it and it had all the notes that I wanted to write over the summer so hopefully they can get everything back but the chance apparently is small. 

May

I cannot believe it is already May! Time is going by so fast. So my life has been the same. Just going to school and studying during the weekends. I cannot wait for the summer though I am thinking of taking some summer classes but I think the ones I will take will be online so I can do the work at home. Lately, I have been quite stressed due to school. I suck at science and I realized no matter how much I try, I just don't do well. But that's not gonna get in the way of still trying. But yeah, I just want this term to be over. Also, I'm starting to have some regrets of what classes I should've taken and classes I should've not taken. But first year me didn't know what I wanted to major. Now I am fairly sure of what I want to major in. Have I decided on what kind of job I want? Not exactly. But hopefully university will help me try out different jobs and figure out which one I like the most. 

Oh yeah, lastly today(at least in the U.S) is Ryosuke Yamada's birthday! I cannot believe that he is already 25. I've been a fan of HSJ since he was around 15 so it's kind of hard to believe but then again, I am 21. When I was younger, I always tried to upload a cover on his birthday, but that kept on failing because I was always sick around his birthday. But when I was 15, I uploaded a really bad cover of Moonlight and Mystery Virgin when I was 16. I learned one thing, never upload covers of JE on YouTube unless you have a big fanbase and  is a decent singer. Also, never record when you're sick.