Last day of being 25

Yes, I haven't updated this blog in forever. So today is my last day of being 25 years old. It does feel weird that I am getting old and to be honest, I don't want to get old. My time of being 25 did go by pretty quickly. I do feel like I experienced quite a bit and learned new things. Anyways, hopefully my 26th year of life won't as different as my 25th and all the other years before that but at the same time, I hope to get to experience new opportunities and maybe try out new stuff.

Long time no see!

I can't believe it's the end of January. Like I always say, time goes by so fast. I had a pretty nice 2022. I went to Japan for the first time in 3 years. It was fun. However, I wish I had more time to do some sightseeing. Hopefully, I can go soon. I really want to go see Morning Musume since Fuku-chan is graduating this year. I haven't been to a Hello! Project concert in over 6 years. I wish their fanclub could just do digital tickets and accept credit card. They're so old fashioned. Anyways, this has been a quick update on my life. I'll try to update this blog a lot more this year.

Videos from May

Long time no see! Here are the videos I uploaded last month. I didn't upload too much since I was kind of busy. I hope you all enjoy!

Videos from April

 Here are the videos I have uploaded this month. I know it's not a lot. I've been feeling a bit tired. I don't think I'll upload too much next month either but we'll see.

Videos from March

 These are the videos I uploaded on YouTube this. I apologize for not making any sort of life update. I've been pretty busy.

Videos from February

 Here are the videos that I have uploaded this month. Hope you enjoy!

February

 It is already February! I feel like January just flew by really quickly. I don't think anything interesting will happen this month besides having to work. I do wish that I can travel someday again. My mom wants to go to Utah with my brother but I'm not sure if she's actually going or not. Anyways, I'm not planning to upload a lot of videos this month but I have some ideas prepared so I hope you look forward to those!

Videos from this month

 These are the videos I have uploaded this month. Hope you enjoy!

Stressful month

 This month was pretty hectic. First of all, I had more than one thing to do at my job which is rare. Also, because I don't really interact with people outside at my job, I've felt isolated. Once the pandemic calms down, I do want to do some volunteer work or anything that'll get me out a little bit out of my comfort zone. 

January

 Happy New Year! Wow, 2021 just flew by. Although things are still very much uncertain, I do hope that everything will slowly get a little bit better. For New Years, I didn't really do much other than just eat. Yes, I have been eating a lot lately. I feel like I've gain quite a bit of weight. Anyways, hope all of you had a good New Years and let's hope 2022 will be somewhat decent.

August

 It has been quite some time since I have last updated this blog. So what have I been up to? Well, I graduated from university back in March. Since I wasn't sure what to do with my life, I kept the job I had when I was in university. I just sent in my two weeks last week. It's a little bittersweet but I feel like I need to move on with my life. I didn't get to finish my overall university campus life because of COVID but what happened is what happened. 

I've been posting a lot of videos on my YouTube. If anyone has time, feel free to check them out. I am planning to post them on here as well soon. I make a lot of videos about the idols I like since there really isn't people who make any videos about Japanese groups. I understand it's probably because K-pop is much more popular. I feel like YouTube changed so much ever since I started making videos back in 2010. It's very corporate now.

Videos from May

 I apologize for not updating this blog as much. I have been focusing on my YouTube channel. Here are the videos I have uploaded last month. Feel free to check them out.

End of April

 I cannot believe that is already the end of April. This month has been a pretty interesting month. I went back to work for the first time since November because I got anxiety working inside. Also, I graduated university. I am going to be very honest, I have no clue what I want to do now. I have thought of wanting to learn more about filming since that is one of the few things I know how to do. My goal hopefully is to find a full time job eventually but for now, I want to focus on building my YouTube channel and find my purpose in life.

Day in the Life: Studying Japanese, Cats, Hey! Say! JUMP Fab! Live Speaks

 I have uploaded my first day in the life vlog. Yes, I know it's boring haha.

Sakurasaku

 I uploaded a new cover! I've been wanting to sing this for years but was never able to while the cherry blossoms were in full bloom. Hope you enjoy!

Guess the setlist with me for Fab!-Live Speaks

Here is my new video where I guess the setlist for HSJ's upcoming online concert. I hope you enjoy!

Last Weeks Videos

 I have yet to post these so here are some videos I have uploaded last week. I hope you enjoy!

New Videos/Radio

 Some of these are not new but I forgot to post some of them on this blog. I hope you enjoy!

Ai · Ai's Otaku Life Ep 2:キラメイジャーやゼンカイジャーについて

March

 I understand it is midway through the month but I thought it would be interesting to do a life update. This week is finals week and I have a final month. To be honest, I am very worried about it. I do understand the material but I tend to get very nervous when it comes to tests. On the bright side, I am done with university after this term but I'm very concerned about my future. I understand it is normal but I have always been taught to always be happy so I'm not very good at dealing with stress. When I get stressed, I tend to remember some of my childhood memories. Lately, memories of my life in middle school has been coming back and they aren't the most fondest memories. Watching my old videos have been reminding me of it as well. It frustrates me how bad the quality of my videos were and how I didn't work more harder to perfect them. Basically, all the videos that I uploaded in middle school, I would just basically throw away the entire project and start over if they were this bad now. To be honest, I can see why people said they were karaoke instead of covers.

Memories of my dad telling me that I don't have to do anything has been coming back as well and that has been a huge factor of my stress. When I was in elementary school and middle school, he basically did not want me to do any extracurricular activities because it cost money. Due to this, I have very bad anxiety of doing anything and that has sort of affected my ability to find a job or any opportunity after university. I understand that I sound very privileged and someone who doesn't have the money to do anything should be more desperate to find a job in order to have a better life but my dad honestly took away any sort of will to live for myself. When I did tell my dad this, he got mad at me and told me that he hates it when people think they have to live for him. Yet, he would get mad if I don't cook or do any sort of activity such as Pokemon Go or write an original song with him.

Silver Rain

 I have uploaded my second reaction video on this channel. This time, I reacted to Silver Rain by The Rampage from Exile Tribe. It was overall really cool and I really like the song as well.